This Blog is dedicated to all those whom have suffered the incredible pain of losing an infant from a still birth, and to those who have endured the loss of a baby from premature birth, SIDS, etc. My main goal is to create awareness on the chilling epidemic that seems to be a dirty little secret...that 4.5 million babies worldwide each year are born still, 71 babies every single day in the U.S. are stillborn!
It seems as though it were only yesterday when I was feeling your kicks inside of me. It's hard to believe that next month it will be 6 years in heaven. It hurts my heart to think about what you would look like, what your favorite color or food would be and most of all what your voice would sound like. I never was given the chance to hear you cry. I will forever wonder what the sound of your angelic voice was like. I will, however, treasure the memories of your movement. You were so active! Out of the 4 pregnancies I have experienced, you were by far the most active little guy! You and I share something so special; you were alive inside of me. I am so grateful that I was able to feel your life inside of me for those special 9mos. You were born lifeless and I yearned to feel your breath, hear your cries and feel your warmth. I have been so incredibly sad over this , but recently have taken solstice in the fact that you and I together were the only ones that felt your life together. This is such a special gift that I will forever treasure. Tomorrow is Infant Remembrance Day so be on the lookout for those lanterns in the sky. Those are for you my angel. You are never far from my thoughts and always in my prayers. I feel your presence often. I often pack up your 3 siblings with the overwhelming urge that I'm forgetting something....during those times I know that you are not next to me and that God needs you more. You are so special to this family. Your siblings talk about you often. I would give my last breath if it meant that you could play with them for just one night. Our family will never be whole without you. My heart yearns for you my son. You are loved, you are remembered, you are a piece of my soul for eternity.
